36 posts from 2007

I have been out of touch with my peeps, not only because of being busy as heck, but also thanks to my crappy LG phone.  even though it is far from new technology I got a Motorola Razor for the low low. (I can't even tell you how i got it.  That's my old sqool side! lol)  Honestly, I have only been using this a day and am already enjoying better reception.  I can actually make and recieve calls and text messages at my job, and that has not been the case for ages.  I don't care what anyone says, the phone does matter! So I am trying to get back to basics of communication.  I already extended olive branches to the folks I been neglecting that were used to hearing my voice.  My current status.....

Place to live.... CHECK

Job....... CHECK

Respect of peers and family.... DOUBLE CHECK

Girlfriend............... accepting applications

new Lease on life............. Oh yeah CECKAROONIE!!!!

lol   Later!

JayQ

What were your top 10 favorite songs or albums of 2007?

Okay number 1 is Prince because.... well it's PRINCE!  Have you heard Chelsea Rogers?  Absolutely the most infectious funky jam I've heard in years!

Talib Kweli would be next.... Once again looking for the perfect beat and dropping some old school style for these young folk that ain't even ready....

Hmmm... was Gwen Stefani 2006 or 2007?   Either way I shout her out too.

Really that is all I instantly latched on to.  I'm sure i'm leaving some out, but I'm not gonna pick 10 just because it says 10.  This is what hit me the most and stays on my MP3 from 2007.

After 12 I'm worse than a Gremlin

Feed me hip hop and I start tremblin'!

Wooooo Wooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jay Queezy is back and about to be better than before, as if that were possible.

My competition, you'll find them in the hospital.

visiting time... I think it's on a Sunday

But notice they only get one day to shine

the rest of the week is mine

And I'll blind you with the light

that the others have yet to find.....

(Big ups to the almighty Rakim and the greatest female emcee ever MC Lyte "as a rock")

So what have I been up to?  Work work work!  things have been hella crazy.  I was talking to my Brotha (if you don't know who that is don't even ask)  I was kinda stressed out about not having a woman in my life, the yin to my yang or whatever.  he had a valid point when he asked if that should even be a focus for me right now(then... 2 weeks ago lol).  The truth is I have not had someone real on my team in that capacity in years.  I got a long list of girls that are truly friends, but no girlFriend.  Now by process of elimination I know i just have to start over from scratch.  a lot of folks just stopped trying to hook up after I went "unemployed".  They didn't stop calling, but they stopped asking me to go out and do stuff.  It's like even though I didn't always pay for everything, people assumed I woud be broke or something.  Honestly I have had more free money than I have in a long time.  Now it's good to have steady consistent employment now, but really I have been doing great.  My brain has finally gotten the reset it has needed for over a year.  I am working amongst people who really appreciate and value my talents.  I am back on point and focused and ready to take over the world.  Yet.... it would be nice to have someone worthy to take the journey with me.  guess I'm getting sappy in my old/young age.  Anywhoooooooooo... I am back and with alternating 4 and 3 day work weeks should have time to hit  the blogs up.  While I didn't see anyone asking "Where in the world is JayQ?"  I know there are those that will be glad to see me about.  To all those, congratulations!  To everyone else.... LOOK OUT!   lol

It's hard to believe that I have been without an official job for 3 months, and even harder to believe I haven't missed any meals as a result.  God has blessed me with talent and life, and since then with countless other things.  today is the last day of my contracted work. I start work at the spot I've been contracting for as of tomorrow.  I have no idea if this is really the move to make, but they have showed with words and actions that they really want me here so I am willing to give it a try.  the last few months I have had so many revelations and reversals of mentalstates.  I have fortunatley managed to stay focused on my family and improving my health.  regardless of anything else, I am clearly in a better position than what I was 6 months ago.  I've always said it's not about money and possessions and recent weeks have been the proof in the pudding for me.  I feel my creativity and overall desire to live long and prosper have returned.  I have done a few pieces and will be back to posting by the end of next week at the latest.  If I have any folks that still check on me here, THANK YOU!  And I truly appreciate everyone who has supported me in any and every way.  That includes those who just listen or read.  Take care.

WORD

What's your alma mater?
Submitted by Lies.

I will always rep West Side High in Gary,IN!!!!  Go Cougars.... with style!

As for college it is all about scarlet and gold... the ever underated Iowa State Cyclones.  There was much more fun to be had in Ames, IA than I ever expected.  I actually had the spot on lock for 3 years.  If JayQ was invovled, people flocked to it.  Dang where did things change?! (Rhetorical)

LOL

PEACE

As the title suggests, I have been away a while and am truly sorry.  I have even been out of touch with my closest friends the last couple weeks(all 3 of them).  really I am still working on my employment situation and on top of that I had a bout with a sinus infection.  Please forgive me as I think I'm back now.  I haven't lost focus at all, I just was having a serious of disagreements with my phone and internet, my two major sources for contact with the outside world.  It has really been a time where I just found myself reflecting on myself and working on some projects that will make ME happy.  I have been piecing together some poetry for my upcoming release (Early 2008 I hope) tentatively entitle "Dark Diction".  People usually see the happy go lucky optimistic JayQ, but really I have been through some thangs and this is my time to put it out there.  Project 2 is a collectin of short stories.  I'm already in the process of sorting which ones are going to make the cut and thinking about a theme and title.  Unfortunately both of these will likely be done wayyyyyy before "Chin Music", by flagship novel in my detective series.  So now you know what's up with JayQ!  I'll be in touch.

Yup Yup

My thoughts are all over the place these days, but that is a good thing for all of you.  the more I think, the more I write.  the more I write, the more I share... Thus providing you with an enormous amount of insight into the mind of JayQ.  Hope you enjoy.

WINDOW TREATMENT

Shards of glass everywhere

On the patio outside my heart

Trustin' scandalous hoodrat ass chicks

Will only leave you torn apart

Now the stained glass window to my heart

Is shattered beyond repair

Smashed to bits by some chick

With fake green eyes and woven hair

I've been picking up the pieces

For most of the last decade

Trying to forgive and not able to forget

The psychological backlash of being played

I've always been a gentleman

Even when demonstrating my bad boy tendacies

Bouts with loneliness and depression

Comforting myself with spending sprees

Late nights at the clubs

having to check IDs

Sexy vixens 18 and over

Steady stickin' it to random pussies

I was a mess and dead wrong

And now I'm tired of being alone

I need a real woman in my life

Someone who's arms feel like home

I'm seriously sick of all the bullshit

I ain't playing no more games

I'm dropping the has beens from my list

And I'm even droppin names

It was Shawn and Tina

Lee, Toyia and 'Chelle

Val, Trish and Shawn

All the way back to Carmelle

Yeah I know the complexity

And that I'm burning bridges

The reality of the matter is

That I could and should be burning britches

I need a real woman NOW

One who ain't ashamed to flirt

A for real throw back chick

That will rock a dress or a skirt

'Cause my physical attraction

Stems from the legs and the eyes

It ain't never all about the sweet spot

Betwixt her left and right thighs

I need someone who'll stand up to me

But still cater to my ego

And understand my need to drive

Wherever it is that we go

I am way more observant

than the average cat

So I need a new girl

One that doesn't stink of 'hoodrat'

Don't go buying new clothes

And put 'em in the back of the closet

Then challenge me for inquiring

To remember when you wore it

You can make your money

Just as well or better than I make mine

Pool our funds together when needed

And things will be fine

Speaking of coming together

My girl can't front about sex

Like inviting me over in the late night hours

Then asking what we should do next

If I always gotta convince you

You might not end up getting done

If you want a brother to trick you

You dealing with the wrong one

Appearances aren't everything

But they are a piece of the puzzle that matters

And I don't know how I'll react

If once again the window to my heart shatters

I need a womans touch for this window treatment

I can pick up the pieces but can't hold them alone

And while we fix the window to my heart

We can begin to dress the window to our home.

*This is me having fun again.  Finally!*

This is a little piece that has been floating around in my head.  I was suddenly inspired to go ahead and put it up.  This will be my first draft and I'm editing as I go so hopefully it comes out the way I felt it.  If not.. so what!  I'm an artist but I really ain't all that sensitive about my shyt!  lol

MENTAL PATIENCE
   (For Her)

When I first met her I thought
She was out of my league
But the verbal interactions
Only served to build the intrigue
I decided if she was playing elsewhere
I'd move to the league she's a part of
Even up the playing field
And see if this could be the start of...
Something special.
MIND
BODY
SOUL

We been having mind sex
For the past few months
Yeah I'd like to do the real thing
But not if it's only once
It's just like extended foreplay
That's lasted fourteen weeks
Taking time to get to know her
Bringing repeated smiles to her cheeks
Cause the real thing...
Ain't just about flesh against flesh
My chest against her breast
Bumpin' and grindin'
Trying to relieve the stress
Knockin' the lining out
And leaving her to rest...
In the wet spot.
I can't front...
I been there and done that
With and without the jim hat
But I'm grown now and can see
That just ain't the way to be
Poundin' pussy by the pound
Just to hear that lovely gushy sound
Or that little noise that they make
Even if the orgasm is fake
But I don't even want to be
Inside her body physically
Only to release fluids, withdraw...
And be disconnected mentally
And the reality of it is
Most of these so called men don't care
Their ego is in tact as long as
They can say they got up in there
But me I ain't that type
I'm content with taking my time
One day I'll make love to her body
Right now I'm just massaging her mind.

It's been a long time

I shouldn't have left you

Without a hot blog to think to...

LOL

Anyway, like the almighty Rakim I truly apologize for those who have been anxiously awaiting some words from the Q-meister.  I am progressively aware that my brief time as a man free from the constrictions of my previously rigorous schedule induced by the nature of my present career path is nearing an end.  Under contract I have pretty much set my own hours and worked on the things I wanted to mostly.  Last week was a vacation week for me, but really I used the time to get back in to the flow of creative writing.  I made some decent progress on my detective novel and even added a few stanzas of poetry in my next project.  I can't complain about going back to work full time because I have burned a lot of my savings.  I got some new music (Talib, Jill, and a collection from the Dead Prez), a new headboard for my bed, re did the downstairs bathroom, and spent a ton of cash entertaining myself and my offspring.  Now it's back to the grind stone.  On top of that, I certainly don't want to get into paying for COBRA insurance so I better get going before my Blue Cross runs out, lord knows the baby momma likes taking the boys to the hospital on a whim.

Now in the midst of all this I did plenty of reflecting and came to the conclusion that while I am going in a positive direction in most aspects of my life, I have one growing concern.  My "love life" is not anywhere near what it should be.  Jay Q is going to have to take some of his own insight into love and relationships and actually try to find my spiritual equal.  I just realized I have had nothing but superficial relationships for the last 3 years at least.  It could be argued that even my marriage was lacking in sustenance.  NO MORE.  I have worked on an interesting little poem that I will post later today or in the morning.  Maybe I will get all baby oiled up and take a pic to go with it... lol